In-SEARCH ... !

Emotions spiced-up in passion. 
Hot, tearful, fuming, fearful & weary (feeling incomplete, insecure); 
to seek thy source (my purpose, place, partner, peak), before I lose my Force (Life). 
The Truth, but it seems, is out there, some where; 
I want to have it, to believe in my Source.

Shepherded by The Force; I sense silently but slightly after all (realisation). 

The search in essence, is for thy Source (my Creator); 

that stays silent & still, deep inside my soul. 

This Truth, now stands above All.

Driven by Faith, now plugged-in fearlessly (mindful), 

deep inside - into the Source Supreme;

I am my Source, the Source is in me.

Recall the searching senses, the search has been called off;

The Source (my Creator), in fact, is my Soulful Self.

A Love (My True Love) so Supreme, now lovingly dares my Self in Source;

To surrender myself, to the elements of an infinite Force.

Selflessly makes us Live, the Force that Lives us;

This Love (endless want for Union with beloved), is for none other, but for the Supreme Source 

Surrendered totally in every action &

and even in an extreme reaction (to live Life);

Sensing silently, through eternal navigation.

A calm mind, realizes when low on apprehension (mindful)

that this body is forced, even for a simple inspiration (Breath - Prana).

Let the Source of Force glow, radiate through mine,

Let it put Me to use or even it it feels like an abuse;

for the purpose of Life, Shall never be misuse. And,

so I shall strive to ever accept and Never do refuse.

As thy Self in thou Soul, is the Force of Source ... !

As the web issues out of the spider and is withdrawn,

As the plants sprout from the earth,

As the hair grows from the body, even so,

The Sages, say this universe springs from 

The deathless Self, The Source of Life.

The Mundaka Upanishada (1.7)

Mindfulness & Meditation !

MINDFULNESS is a state of an intense presence, in the present tense. 

It is such a joyful state of existence, 
that its exact experience is beyond any form of expression. 

The closest most of us come to being mindful in our daily lives is quite unknowingly, when someone or we ourselves find ourselves staring into a nothingness in space unaware of times or when we all are fast asleep every night; thoughtlessly. The best of such an experience, is encountered during a dreamless, dense and deep sleep - which only a few of us are blessed to have regularly. This only happens when one can manage to sleep in a state of a complete surrender (detached from the prevailing circumstances in our lives) to the force that actually breathes 'life force' (prana) into & out of, each of us every single moment in night, and makes us arise the next morning; while we are actually highly unaware of its subtle yet powerful and magical presence.

Not all of us who go to sleep every night, awake & arise the very next day.

Each one of us someday surely, will not arise or be awake for another magical day.

This is the only certain & changeless promise that Life has to offer to us.

This is the highest or the only supreme Truth of the entire existence and is obviously worth being aware of or mindful of, in every single breath that we inspire, as most certainly one of them would be the very last of our inspirations, before we finally expire.

Mindfulness, then appears, is a state demonstrated by every single living species and all the magical beauty, every single day, in an animate or inanimate display around us. Amidst which, we still manage to live with a mind-full of chaotic, cluttered, insecure, random, unregulated thoughts, ignoring the obvious message, so subtly/ secretly yet beautifully displayed.

Probably, every single existence (skies, earths, oceans, glaciers, mountains, rivers, trees, flowers, animals, reptiles, birds etc.) in its natural state, is so self-situated (Swastha - Sanskrit word for health, meaning - to be situated in one's own self - physically, mentally and spiritually); that to me this now seems to be a subtle but specific demonstration of Life's inherent or default state of existence. 
This strikingly then seems to be an indication or a clue/ hint for the entire humanity. We have been so stressfully wandering in this wonderland of existence (Physical Life, Here) trying to seek answers to the unknown, beyond. The answers, I imagine would naturally flow to us, if we just try & seek to re-imbibe the natural state of our own mindful existence, that actually comes as a default setting within our cerebral software, in system-settings.

MEDITATION is a state of intense Mindfulness. 

A state, wherein the mind, the body and the soul are undifferentiated.
The UNITY - indivisible, uncompounded, formless. 

During meditation all the energy, attention or awareness at the disposal of our beautiful mind, is now focused deeply within & onto the mind itself, by the mind, which eventually has the potential to take us into a infinite realm beyond the thinking mind and that seems to be the precise purpose of experiencing this state. 

The state of boundless abundance or freedom, freedom not only from the external bondages, but more significantly from the inner knots of complicated and convoluted thoughts. Freedom from this heavy chain of relentless thoughts, rigid mindsets or dogmas that our minds can subtly but successfully get us trapped into, if this powerful energy available at its disposal, is focused just onto the sheer physicality & in this wonderland of existence, the life Here.

This formless state, probably a source of all the creations;
also seems to be a destiny, that the entire manifest and un-manifest existence Here, all share. 

                                "The light of Lord flashes in the Lightening;

                                The light of Lord flashes in our Eyes.

                                It is the Power of Lord that makes

                               The Mind to think, desire and will. Therefore,

                              Use this Power to Meditate on Lord."

                                                                             The Kena Upanishad  (IV.4-6)        

Is My Guilt, inbuilt...?

If Yes, then Why is my 'Guilt', Inbuilt…?

Why is my guilt inbuilt?

of the ‘sins sensed’ from dusk to dawn;

‘A Guilt’ - so powerfully built, of craving for ‘The Want’.

‘The Ego’, my splintered mental satire,

whips my sense horses, fuelling ‘The Desires’;

Commands...un-enough…!

till ‘The Will’ wilts...!

…it’s so un-content since forever...?

A desire for ‘The Unity’ ultimate,

doctored by thy ‘Master Mind’;

renders my ego bizarre, dry & blind.

It sees and hears, it smells, it tastes and smiles,

then it even lunges selfishly to touch;

It trembles, it holds, it quivers & shivers,

then it moans, it groans & then crumbles...as such.

It senses, primal yet perennial,

ahhh…a pleasure so pure;

It feels timeless though transient,

hmmm…this seems to be a treasure for sure…?

Bragged & dragged, by the Master for miles;

Thy soul in stillness, does only so much as it smiles.

Entrapped is thy Soul, in a breeze of physical wallop;

My Mind Masters faster, than the dear horses can gallop.

With such explosive passion for horses,

…Is it merely an abyss, this amazing Horse Power…?

Do I feel the Breeze?

…which so caresses, kisses, envelopes...!

or Do I still not?

Breeze is my Soul,

Breeze is indeed Her’s,

Our shells from inside out, this breeze does enclose…!

Still with all my will,

Do I even feel my soul?,

Do I even not feel Her’s?

…Am I thoughtlessly being Mastered into a denial..?

My Master now desperately seeks,

a companion of breeze;

for my impulsive, possessive, physical needs,

just to reach Her out & just heat 'n' freeze.

When she can talk so much softer than me, and

she can walk so much swifter than I;

while she can think so much deeper than thee, but

She can only shout silently as thy.

Just to feel Her for ever,

deep from inside out…but still;

…Why is my Soul revolting thy Master’s clout…?

Shall I, effortlessly release my ‘Horses of senses’ Here,

to ignite-in Her(e),

a pursuit so romantically resolute.

As I, darkly desire a pleasure secretive...!

Of course to have, eternally have Her(e).

Ohhh please…enough is un-enough, for Mind…

…as My enough is the only eternal I seek,

till it might, just temporarily Be...?

                                        OR

Shall I, struggle to restrain my ‘Horses to senses’ Here,

as nothing-in Her(e),

remotely appears any absolute.

As I, decently realise a realm relative…!

Only to have Her(e) & to inevitably leave Her(e).

Heyyy please…only eternal is enough, for Soul…

…as perhaps The eternal is the only enough,

for My Self, is a transient Thee…? 

The Guilt it seems is deeply inbuilt...somewhere deeper within, nowhere remotely outside. 

The Guilt - is the Fight, is the Daily Battle that each of us embattles ourselves with, every single morning between Our Powerful Senses commanded by Mind - The proverbial Master Vs. Wisdom of Life, enclosed within our eternal Souls.

To Live our Life, without even remotely paying attention to, or even trying to resolve this eternal battle, being fought every second on the terrain of our  super sub-consciousness; is to live a life - ignoring the most important challenge facing our own peaceful existence. Ignorance is only bliss, till it no longer is...!

I have tried to put forth the War between heart and mind...!
I have tried to represent the immense similarity shared by the physicality & chemistry of attraction, felt by each one of us towards this mesmerizing material world and our magnetic mutual opposites…while thinking of making money and/ or love...in every single nanosecond…if the whole existence of billion years is simply condensed in a 24hr clock time.

The perennial small battles constituting this eternal War;
waged between the horses of senses and charioteer, the soul,

fought by each of us in every single moment, in every tiny thought,

while attempting to choose between the unapparent yet illusive choices,

the battlefield then it appears, is somewhere deeper beneath the physical human terrain...probably very intra-cellular, in every single cell…no may be even sub-atomic.

Between:
more and enough,
release and restrain,
indulgence and prudence,
gratification and meditation,
accumulating and donating,

receiving and giving,

having and leaving,

horsing and nursing.
selfishness and selflessness,

enough and eternal.

.

In an effort to make one realize that, the calculated enough is very relative and only infinite eternal comes quite close to a probable absolute, through these questions that have been haunting a fragmented human terrain, since its inception. To realize that the War we fight is within ourselves and not with other-selves, that the war we fight is within and not without, that the war harbours dis-ease and only peace deep inside can summon ease, and that the elusive peace too, is in our hands as is the decision to go to the war, despite appearing not to be.

Is Ego-driven, an Eco-driven way of My Life ?

When 'I' live My Life with Ego-drive switched on, I feel persistently challenged but 

When 'The Life' lives me on sans-Ego mode, I feel incessantly empowered.

The former way of living is a historically conditioned human-pattern, in a rampant and unregulated practice in this civilised world. But, the latter mode of evolutionary living, is a self-regulatory one and is reasonably difficult to practice amidst the prevalent power-trips on the former mode of travel.

The Ego-driven mode in such a shorter-span (HUMAN existence), is without doubt - quite enticing, energy  craving-consuming-craving, 'I'-enhancing, ego-inflating, instantly gratifying, expeditious, enthralling but exhausting, a finite & health-at-risk mode of travelling in the Here.

Where as probably over a much cosmic span (LIFE, in existence), the sans-Ego mode - unsurprisingly would turn out to be an enormously ecological, effortless, engrossing, economical, energy-sharing, ego-deflating, enlightening, health-enriching, exhilarating & endless mode of travelling in the Now & the Here-after. 

The capacity to realise that we have the ability to think, to choose and modify is what separates us Humans from the rest of the existing Life. This 'ability' comprises an exclusive application installed in our most advanced cerebral software systems. But, unfortunately we tend to use this advanced application quite sub-optimally and not precisely in the way it was supposed to be. 

We must choose selflessly & wisely, as every single choice we make, in every single moment of our daily lives, is not happening without a consequence and these consequences affect not anyone else out there but Only Us. 

Effort or Ease ?

Thoughts of themselves have no substance; 
let them arise and pass away unheeded. 

Thoughts will not take form of themselves, 
unless they are grasped by the attention; 

if they are ignored, there will be no appearing and no disappearing.
                          – ASHVAGHOSHA

A Thought/ urge or an idea is a spark of pure energy or an impulse that manifests in the grey zones of our restless thinking fields (mind or awareness) - mostly out of nowhere & usually with an effortless ease. This thought when thought-upon may appear to be absolutely impossible to conclude, illogical to reason and illegitimate to norms at the time of inception but nevertheless it takes birth. The most beautiful thoughts are born to those who are at peace (calm) with themselves (in their minds) and these thoughts then gradually unfold themselves with an effortless ease (magical) when they are brought up with a selfless passion, an absorbed attention but without an attached intention. Then, the logistics of this unbelievable journey are taken care of by an overwhelmingly infinite energy of the universe (the supremely organising & creative intelligence) around and inside us. One then inadvertently positions oneself to share, realise & achieve immensely on any journey where fun, thrill, enthusiasm & uncertainty turn out to be the enthusing companions. 

A Plan is a systematic scheme of acts, events or intentions that our brain struggles with, consumes a lot of energy in the process and then synthesises it around a specific thought process, in order to achieve an imagined destination - which does not actually exist in the present moment anywhere in the universe. So, in effect is not a reality, as it does not even exist. A plan then represents a series of actions or measures put in place with an intense attachment to the imagined target or a goal in our mind thus inevitably inviting insecurity, doubt, anxiety as exhausting companions on the way to an imagined goal. The goal may be realised, but that plan now may not appear, to be an energy efficient pathway to the podium. Loss, ecstasy or gain, pain or panic would be suffered on the way and now the desired achievements may not seem, what one would have imagined them to appear like, from your then present - the non-existing past. The toughest trick is to be ultra-flexible even while executing your well-planned plans, and that is the most difficult part of a structured plan - having back-up plans represent this unpredictable behaviour of a plan.

We all have seen so many of the best laid plans going astray despite having the best of energy & intentions at their disposal and the simplest of lofty thoughts resonating in a thunder, despite not harbouring an attachment to a specific plan. Things usually do not turn out as we would have meticulously planned for them, in many instances; whereas passionately harboured thoughts achieve much more than our own imagination despite lacking a logical & logistical plan.

Then, it is highly likely, that all the detached journeys are supposed to be enjoyed like there is no tomorrow; the realised destinations then would merely become transit or connecting points amidst magical &  thrilling adventure of an endless journey, which starts from, a pure spark - the thought. 


As our minds progressively attain, an intense awareness, a focused attention, and are absolutely available in the unfolding reality of the moment, the energetic sparks then begin to transform into pure potentiality. 

'To Urge is Human, 
To Plan is Divine.'

Death as a LED !

IF, Life appears to be such a fantastic invention of the Supremely creative intelligence in a mode of intense Meditation (single-mindedness of purpose), thus enjoying itself through Its endless designs;

Then, Death surprisingly seems to be an inescapable purpose of this invention, recurrently refreshing our awareness to the relentless throb of life energy, each of the living entity is, in every living moment.

LED - Life Enriching Destination.